Dealing with me.

I wish you knew how to deal with me better.

When I push you away, know that I don't mean it, for I can't live without you.

When I shout at you, know that it is a burst of frustration but nothing that is set in stone - it is a transient feeling that will disappear as soon as it appears,

and also know that, my anger normally comes from myself; most of it is directed at me.

When I say i don't want to be with you anymore, know that it is a grave mistake that I made, I probably would regret saying that to you afterwards.

So, when I push you away, be there for me,

until you know for sure that I don't want you, which

you will know by my stony, unreactive, emotionless appearance and speech.

So when I shout at you, please forgive me,

then hug me tight so that I can calm down then apologize.

So when I say I don't want to be with you anymore,

hold onto me tight,

and don't let me walk away,

because it may well be the biggest mistake of my life.