Questions

It's been about 5 months since the last break up. It's been 3 months since I had a big fight with my parents. No wait. It's been about 2 months. It's been about 1 month since I had a good time with my friends. It's been about 24 hours since I came back down to this place(Singapore) to enter reality and life again from the most memorable time I had with my friends. It's been about 20 hours since I had my last cigarette. It's been about 5 hours since I last kissed my girlfriend. And my heart's been aching for the last 2 hours. I don't know why. A pent up, dull pain holding my heart with a dull grip. is it because I just read a tragedy? Is it because I feel jealous that I can't be what the other could be? Is it because, I can't define what love is yet I still tell myself I fell in it?

What is it? where do we come from and go to? When do we come and go and change? what do we become in the end? I'm afraid. It scares me that in the end, it will all come to nothing but a midsummer night's dream. What do i do now?

I guess, I am to answer these questions so that I am to grow up yes?

That's what they all said.

I wish I could be Holden from The Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger and just leave the society for a while.