I don't really look back in my life.
I'll have my share of mistakes and regrets, but I don't lock myself in it.
Rather, I just push through until I make it.
Or, until I make the same mistake again.
I watched a video, a music video by Alex Feather Akimov.
It's called All about the rain.
The story was so similar to ours, only in a different place with music in the background.
Makes me wonder where we stand now.
I'm with another girl, happy nonetheless,
and you, drifted away from my world, in another where things are a shade darker,
after a few boys of course.
We used to stand in the grey between the two worlds.
We compromised, to create a world for ourselves where everything was to our liking.
We both sacrificed and we both gained, to make some changes that may not be reversible.
We promised each other things that could not be.
Was it my cunning or my naivety, I'll never know.
Had I promised you false sense of security so that I could take you one night?
Only to run away when the first crisis struck.
I've made many mistakes, many serious and many that would make me stop and shudder,
but if there's any that really gets my breathing ragged and hard,
it would be me leaving you in the face of such problems.
Now we are ripped away, I left, and you retreated back to your world.
Whatever that could have been will never be now, and that is how it will stay.
I see you sometimes, and wonder it was entirely my fault that the sweet girl I loved
changed so much, to hurled into darker sides of life than ever before.
Would we have stayed in our little bubble,
if we stayed?
I'll never know the answer, and I am a coward.
I wanted to say sorry for what I've done,
and also that I'm truly in sorrow of what came across us.
I'm only happy that you are continuing to live a life Lia,
but our book must close, like everybody else's at some point.
We've uttered words of love once,
yet we must now say goodbye.
